A Very Cool Note

Found this on facebook and found it awesome:

~An Atheist's View on Life:
(read from top to bottom)

I will live according to these beliefs
God does not exist

It is just foolish to think
That there is a God with a cosmic plan
That and all-powerful God brings purpose to the pain and suffering in the world
Is a comforting thought, However
It
Is only wishful thinking
People can do as they please without eternal consequences
The idea that
I am deserving of hell
Because of sin
Is a lie meant to make me a slave to those in power
"The more you have, the happier you will be"
Our existence has no grand meaning or purpose
In a world with no God
There is freedom to be who I want to be
But with God Life is an endless cycle of guilt and shame
Without God
Everything is fine
It is ridiculous to think
I am lost and in need of saving

(read from bottom to top)
:A Christian's View on Life~

A Online Portfolio

Hello Everyone!

So I decided to create an online portfolio!

If you'd like to check it out you can by clicking the photo below:

Blessings,
Adriana

Sing A Song Weekend!

This is a song that they sing at my church that I absolutely Love!

Blessings, Adriana

Top 10 Hits

Hey Everyone,
So I thought it would be fun to go back, look at all my posts, and see what my top 10 blog hits are so far. So without a due, here are my top ten:

10. 91      Page views... Childhood Dreams
9.  92      Page views... Some Beautiful Nature
8.  341    Page views... Are you like a Pharisee
7.  358   Page views... A New Year, A New Beginning?
6.  625   Page views... Tryin To Get a Lil' Creative!
5.  744   Page views... Blog Party from Under My Little Umbrella
4.  1301 Page views... Friends, Marriage, and Wedding Cakes
3.  1927 Page views... Sweet Quotes to Make You Smile
2.  1949 Page views... A Look Inside the Music: Britt Nicole


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And the grand finally....



1.  2110 Page views... Mirror, Mirror on the Wall  

Thanks for reading! It's those of you that support my blog that makes such enormous page views possible :)

Blessings,

Adriana

Butterfly And Dragonfly Cakes!

A little while ago I made these cute cakes and thought I would share with you all:

This is a white cake with a peanut butter filling and buttercream icing. I had never made a peanut butter filling before so I thought it'd be a tasty treat to try! :D

This is a white cake with a Chocolate Dream filling (Chocolate and Marshmallow cream). It turned out pretty good as well :)

That's all for now, if I cook up any other good things then I'll try to post as well.

~Adriana

Showing what your for or against

I heard a song on the radio that was saying in the verse how when your judgmental people only know what you are against and not what you are for. It's so easy as a christian to judge others and see them as below us because they aren't "right with God". Yet, we can't even see the big picture: My youth pastor explains it like this;

"We as Christians see ourselves as being this close to God" he says with his fingers 1 inch apart from each other.
"And we see not-yet-believer's as being this far from God" he demonstrates with his hands a foot apart.
"When in reality we are this far apart from God" his hands being a foot apart, "And not-yet-believer's are this far" his hands broaden by a 1/4 of an inch.
"As you can see, we like to think that we are righteous and near to perfect, but really we aren't that much more perfect than those who aren't with God because we still sin and make mistakes"

My youth pastor was not trying to say that it means nothing to be in a relationship with God, but merely that we are still human and make mistakes just like the others around us. And therefore we really have no right to judge them. We aren't a mountain higher than them because we have God in our hearts.

We need people not to know what we are against, but what we are for. It's as simple as making choices: Do you shun the person with tattoos and dyed hair, or do you greet them with a smile and reach out to them? Does the bible tell us to shun others or to love on others? If you say that you stand for what the bible says, then what do you think you should do? Maybe it means giving a friendly greeting to the one with tattoos and dyed hair even if you personally don't wear that kind of 'attire'.

I am not saying that we need to "conform" to the world, but merely show Gods love and reach out just like Jesus did. If you think about it, Jesus hung out with people that did things that God didn't approve of. Take Judas for example; Jesus spent time with Judas and even washed his feet! Yet Judas was a thief. Does that means that Jesus became a thief or conformed to what Judas did? Absolutely not!

So I challenge you all to step out of the box and set aside your judgements, do what Jesus would in a situation and in the end show others what you stand for.

Do not speak evil against one another, brothers. The one who speaks against a brother or judges his brother, speaks evil against the law and judges the law. But if you judge the law, you are not a doer of the law but a judge. There is only one lawgiver and judge, he who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor? James 4:11-12

I think this verse is self explanatory on not judging others, and what we need to do instead is show others what being a christian is really about: How God loves us and how he loves you too.

Blessings,

Adriana

Setting the Example

Thanks to several friends pushing me to continue to write on my blog, I figured I should try to post again ;)

Well, I suppose there is no time like the present to say what I've been thinking about lately. It seems like this last year I have heard so many teenagers saying that they need to put the younger class-man in their place. In other words, they treat the kids that are just entering high school like garbage and say that they can get away with doing it because they are older. This has never once made sense to me being that I've always been taught to have respect for other people. Yes in my mind I do see those that are younger than me as immature, that's kind of a given, but I don't make myself so high and mighty because of it.

I got to thinking about this because I am now helping with 5th and 6th graders at my church. It's weird because they are not little kids that you can baby, nor are they teens/young adults (I personally think it's an awkward age). Anyways, I found how easy it was to see them as very much immature and constantly trying to get our attention by showing off and such. It would be simple enough to look down on them because of their behavior.

When you look at the big picture, the reality is that looking down on others doesn't just apply when your in high school, or taking care of kids, it apply s to a daily life as a adult.

The people that look down on lower class men, when they grow up to be a adult they don't just stop being mean - they just take it to the next level! Suddenly they look down on those that are a title below them at work, or those who aren't as skilled as them in something. It is really a major issue.

The answer though to this problem, regardless of whether you look down on others or is the one being looked down on, is this simple verse:

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.

~1 Timothy 4:12

It's important to, regardless of your situation, set an example for others constantly. If you feel like there are a bunch of immature pesky kids around you, rather than telling them they are less than worthy, show them how to act in a Godly way. Not to raise above them, but to shine Gods light. That in itself is going to bring others to you and you'll find that they will look up to you.

If your the one feeling like your not 'good enough' because you are younger, then don't react in a negative way to those putting you down, but rather pray for those people and act in a way that you know is pleasing to God.

Mastering these skills will only continue to help you as you get older and continue to find these situations in the work place and other environments.

I know it's something that I need to keep an eye on for myself that I don't begin to look down on others, as well as not getting mad when I feel like someone is saying that I am dumb in comparison.

I guess that is all for now

Have a blessed day,

Adriana

Sing A Song :)

This is a totally up beat song that I love and it's by Toby Mac :)
Enjoy!

Not just hearing, but listening...

Sometimes I think we as humans (I included) tend to hear but not listen. I think though that this is a fault in us, as it allows us to block out others when they maybe pouring out their hearts to us. Something that made me think of this is when one of my co-workers said that he listens to every single word his daughter says because even though she says 100 words a minute, he knows that in-between every few words is a piece of her heart.

I think about all those times when I block out what people are telling me, whether at work, home or school and how I am hearing -but not listening. And it saddens me when I think of all the people that I have interacted with, that are just waiting for someone to read in-between the lines of what they are saying because they want support or encouragement -yet no one listens.

Then Jesus said, "He who has ears to hear, let him hear.

Mark 4:9

Sometimes this can be a challenge, other times it can be easy.
It's easy when you are listening to your best friend, after all, he/she probably has a lot of things in common with you and you enjoy one another s presence or else you would not be best friends.
It's hard when the someone whos talking to you is someone that you don't get along with, or a coworker/school chum that is living there life completely different than you see fit - because judgment can easily place a veil over your ears in such times.

My chanllenge for myself and you is to reach out and listen to the people that aren't so easy to listen to, for me that's a coworker that is completely unhappy with her life and every word she says is negative but yet I can see the hurt and anger that she seems to be struggling with. For you it could be a coworker, school friend, or maybe even a family member.

No matter who it is, listen to each words they say, and don't expect them to flat out say " I want you to encourage me" or "I am hurting right now", because not anyone I can think of would flat out say that. Read inbetween the lines as best as you can and get to the root of what they are telling you.

Know this, my beloved brothers. Every man must be swift about hearing, slow about speaking, slow about wrath;
James 1:19
Many blessings to you throughout this week,
Adriana

Free Will

The whole thing of free will can be a hard concept to understand. It's easy to blame God for things that happen. It's easy to say that because God has power to change things but instead allows horrible things to happen to you that He is at fault. There has been periods of my life overtime that I was mad at God and telling myself those things.

Now I've moved on with my life and am serving God, but there are others that I have met lately that are going through that stage. It's hard to know what to tell people when they are hurt and wounded, but I started thinking about it today and kind of fit together everything I have learned from the bible and going to church and I understand what it means by "free will".

God doesn't make things bad occur to us, he doesn't stop it from happening at times, but it's not Him who created the issue -it's the sin of man that creates our problems, which is backed up by Satan as well. It's because we have the choice and freedom to live our lives as we please that we run into problems.

 It's when we don't want to own up to mistakes that we have made, or when we are not willing to forgive others of the wrong that they have done to us that we then point the finger to God. You can have the same scenario happen to two different people and yet have different results based on the victims ability to forgive or blame. A story I heard on the radio was about a woman whose daughter was killed by a drunk driver. Now you can either a) Forgive the man for his wrongs and continue to praise God through the storm, or b) blame the man for doing wrong and blame God. You see, you can't continue to have a good relationship with God if you have a grudge against someone. So even if you think that your not having any anger towards God but torwards a person, it really does not matter because that is hindering you from growing closer to him.

So to sum it up, because of free will people make mistakes and sin, and because of sin we have hardships. With those hardships we can choose to forgive or to blame, and what we choose will depend on how depressing or joyful our life is.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that the next time someone tells you their story, and shares with you how they are mad at God, you can explain to them how it's not God that causes there woes and do your best to encourage them to forgive either themselves or others for the hardships.

Maybe you already knew that. For me it wasn't that I didn't know that God isn't responsible for life problems, because we are taught that all throughout church, but it was more of the actual understanding that I was struggling with. There is a difference between knowing and understanding, and I am happy to have finally pieced it all together :)

Anyways, that's just been on my mind lately...
Blessings,
Adriana

Hello!

Hello everyone!
I feel like my blog is so lonely right now and in need of attention since I've been neglecting it so! That's why I thought I should start by writing this post :)

So much has happened in my life:

I had my senior pictures taken/I graduated

 

I got my first car! It's a blue Buick, but I haven't really taken any pictures yet....

I made my second wedding cake! 

I did some paintings!

I am still steadily working around 40 hours a week, which makes things pretty busy, and hard to find time to do stuff like blogging, especially since I go to bed at 8pm so that I can get up at 4am for work. I am looking forward to the fourth of July though!
Right now I am making what's called "Patriotic Dessert", Yum!!!

I am thinking about an in depth post to write, but for now you are pretty caught up in my life :)
Blessings,
Adriana

Being Content...

So today as I was mopping the floor I came to the realization of how I am being so discontent with the blessings that God has given me. It was a horrible thought and I was displeased to find that in me.

You see, I had been praying for a job, and as you know I got two of them. Well, I was inwardly discontent with my position. Wishing that I was a sales person at Micheal's rather than unloading freight and stacking items on shelves. And it hit me that God gave me this job for a reason and that I need to be grateful and count my blessings.

I am not going to get to into this topic, because I have already written two posts in the past about this, but It's just another area that God is saying "Adriana, you need to step it up and draw closer to me rather than be ungrateful" .

Here is two related posts if your interested:
Wanting to Step Into Greener Grass
A Taste of My Own Medicine

So that's where I am at with my spiritual life as of today, and here is a verse that hit the hammer on the nail for me:
Hebrews 13:5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake.

Many blessing to all of you,

Are you like a Pharasee?

My bible study has been reading in the book of Mathew for almost a year and a half now, and we're still only in chapter 23! It seems like we won't ever finish that book, but our study's have been in depth being that we only read a few verses at a time and really dig deep in them.
A general point though that I have noticed throughout the book is how Jesus is constantly calling out the Pharisees. Time after time they try to trick Jesus and yet He turns the table on them. There a funny bunch the Pharisees, they make laws for the people to follow, some of them biblical, but most not. Jesus calls them hypocrites multiple times throughout His time on earth.

The question truly is though, are we like the Pharisees?
Below if Mathew 23:23-27, Jesus was talking to the multitudes about the Pharisees:

²³ “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices—mint, dill and cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former. ²⁴ You blind guides! You strain out a gnat but swallow a camel.
²⁵ “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence. ²⁶ Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.
²⁷ “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean. ²⁸ In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.

This is what, from reading the above verses, I think a Pharisee is:
*A rule follower and maker, but a neglecter of the heart
*Self conscious of appearance, but not of the heart

You don't have to have a title to be a Pharisee, you just have to act and think like one. Which is why, if we are not careful, you and I can be modern day Pharisees. That's not something that is good though, because according to the Bible God frowned upon such.

Do you like to follow the rules? Haha, I know I sure do! I tend to be a real rule follower, so I do my homework on time, clean my room, and complete my chores. But is that enough to have a relationship with God? Is that providing for the needs of the heart? What about justice, mercy, and faithfulness?

What the Pharisees didn't' understand is that you can follow the rules to your hearts content and not murder or commit adultery, but that does not mean that you have a relationship with God. And what's worse, is that the Pharisees didn't even follow the rules that they expected others to!

The Pharisees had a carefully composed exterior. They made sure that they did all the right things in public, and that others looked up to them and followed them. There appearance wasd deceptive, for on the inside they were hollow.

Do you ever worry about your appearance? What about impressing someone? Putting on an act is something that I have even done to just try and please/impress others. It's false. It's fake. It's not me, and I lose all self respect for myself when I do it.

The Bible simply states that if you focus on Jesus and allowing him to form your heart, that you will be beautiful and impressive on the outside. And when you put on an act, others will only be impressed long enough to then find out that that is not who you really are on the inside.

With all that said and done, are you even a teeny bit like the Pharisees?

I will answer a simple yes to that.

It's not something that I like, but with acknowledgment it is something I can work on.

Perhaps it gives you something to reflect on as well :)

Blessings,

Sing A Song Weekend!

Ok, so this is a new favorite of mines! I love the beat to this song, it is so uplifting and makes me want to dance, haha ;) And considering that I am not much of a dancer then that means that it must be amazing! lol, hope you enjoy :)

An Update on my Life :)

Hello Everyone!

Whew! It's been a crazy busy month! Between finishing all my online school, being teachers assistant in one of my classes, job searching, getting graduation stuff ready, and a ton of other stuff, I haven't hardly had time to catch my breath!

So what all has happened to me lately? Haha, well here is an overview:

I completed all my online courses 2 weeks ago, and since then I have kind of been on summer vacation, but don't get the misconception that I had more free time ;)

My Journalism class has launched our first ever school newspaper! That was a class that I helped get started by convincing my teacher we should have an online paper, and then this year we have been working toward that goal but didn't finally publish it till last week :)

 As many know I have been job searching since the end of December. Well, I finally got 2 jobs! One at a Subway and the other at an art's and crafts store. All in all I should get 15+ hours in each week, but I haven't actually started yet, but I shall next week!

 And with the money I am earning I will be saving up for car insurance, getting my license (which has fees asociated with it), and a car! I am scheduled to take the driving test on May 24th, so I am excited for that!
Then I have been swimming, with the goal to take a Lifeguard training class in June! I can swim 800 yards without stopping, which is an amazing improvement from when I started :)

Graduation is coming up in the early week of June, and so I have a ton of stuff I got to finish, including my invitations :)

I am baking a wedding cake in the same week as my graduation, so I am schedulin a cake tasting day and I got to make sure I have all the proper equipment for it.

Then there is a ton of extra activities I am doing, so it feels pretty hectic right about now!

Anyways, I'll try to post as much as I can, but atleast y'all know what's going on :)

Sincerely,

Adriana

Sing-A-Song Weekend!

No matter what I can always count on God, and I know that when the time is right, I can depend on him to bring someone ever so wonderful in my life! ♥

This is a song that I would love to play on my wedding day:

The Impression of Impressing...

Have you ever wanted to impress someone? How about trying to be so impressive that you act dumb? Haha, that's me sometimes! 

 I've been told all my life that I don't need to impress nobody, we have probably all been told that at one point in time or another. But does it ever sink in? That is the question at hand.

I got to thinking about this when I found myself wanting to impress this guy.

You see I've always prided myself on not being one of those boy-crazy girls, but in truth I kind of am (my dear friend Anne could attest to that!).

I don't flirt or even really talk to the guys that I like, it's more of something I keep to myself, but when I know that they are near I try to act in a way that leaves a nice-girl impression. Like hoping they'll see me being sweet to my siblings and maybe thinking in their minds "what a nice girl" or something of the sort.

I suppose that I am not being terrible in my actions of trying to impress, but I got to thinking... Do I really want a guy to like me for someone that I am not naturally? If the person doesn't like me for who I am then does it really mean anything to have earned their attention? That my dear readers is the question that I have faced myself with.

A verse in the bible really struck me:

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy. “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God. 

Matthew 5:6-10... 

 The part that I bolded really struck home for me. 

You have to BE merciful in order to RECEIVE mercy.
Let's translate that to my scenario:

You have to BE yourself in order to RECEIVE others liking you for who you are.

I am not sure if that really makes sense, but I can't even truly expect someone to like me when I am not even being me. In other words, I need to stop trying to impress, but rather be myself and leave a true impression.

I'll leave you with this last impression:

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”  

1 Samuel 16:7

Be yourself, and if you really want to impress others (not that that should be a goal, but nonetheless) then work on your relationship with God because what's in your heart is what matters.

Blessings,

Legacy

Hello Readers,

So lately I have been listening to a song by Nichole Nordeman, which has really inspired me. I encourage you to listen to it before continuing on with reading this post.

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 Have you ever thought of what people will say or not say when you have gone home? What they will remember you by? How about if they even remember you at all? 

I can't say that I have dwelt on it too much. Partially because I try not to focus too much on what I think others might think of me, especially when I do dumb things, because then I'd be miserable thinking that they have terrible thoughts about me. But nonetheless I do care about the legacy that I will leave behind.

Just like the song says, "You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery with all the who's-who's and so-and-so's that used to be the best, at such-and-such, it wouldn't matter...much."

And then it moves on to say, "I want to leave a legacy, how will they remember me; did I choose to love? Did I point to you enough to leave a mark on things? I want to leave an offering, a child of mercy and grace who blessed your name..."

Nichole Nordeman is talking about how to leave a legacy as well as how not to. Leaving behind an imprint doesn't mean by being good at worldly things. It takes more than just being able to bake a good cake to leave a permanent memory of you, but rather to be a child of God that is merciful and graceful. To display the fruits of the spirit to others.

To make it short, when you display God in your life and act accordingly, you will touch the lives of those around you. They'll notice a difference when you are around and an absence when you are gone. They will forever remember the light of God that shined through you and you will leave a legacy.

I encourage you to examine your life as I examine mines and whether or not your doing the best you can to shine God's light and ultimately leave a legacy (of which I already know I am failing at).

Hope you enjoyed the song and that it inspires you as much as it does me :)

Blessings,

Adriana Castillo

Showing & Recieving Patience

Hello Dear Readers!

Lately I have been getting so irritated! (just being blunt there), Have you ever felt that way? I was sitting in class and these two girls were being so disruptive and interrupting the teacher any time he spoke a word. And I'm just thinking, didn't they learn to raise their hands? I was becoming very intolerant with them by the end of class time. There are many other things that have bugged me, but I think you get where I'm coming from on the matter.

It all comes down to patience though. It's ironic because all my life I have had people tell me that I am so patient. Well truth be known, I may not show my irritance, but I certainly am thinking it!

The Bible doesn't say though that so long as people don't know your intolerance that your a'okay. God knows all of our thoughts, and I think it's just as bad to think it in comparison to doing it.

Here are some examples of patience that we as christians are called to follow:

Numbers 14:18 (KJV) ‘The LORD is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, forgiving iniquity and transgression..."

1 Timothy 1:16 But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life.

This one was convicting to me especially;

Romans 2:3-4 Do you suppose, O man—you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself—that you will escape the judgment of God? Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance?

These verses have really made me realize that I am so imperfect and that in truth I am one of those girls that are irritating. God has shown patience and mercy with me when I don't deserve it, yet I can't bear to show any patience to these girls from class.

It reminded me of the parable of the unforgiving servent in Matthew chapter 18:21-35:

²¹ Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”  ²² Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.^[g]

   ²³ “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. ²⁴ As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold^[h] was brought to him. ²⁵ Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
   ²⁶ “At this the servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ ²⁷ The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
   ²⁸ “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.^[i] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded.
   ²⁹ “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay it back.’
   ³⁰ “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. ³¹ When the other servants saw what had happened, they were outraged and went and told their master everything that had happened.
   ³² “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. ³³ Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ ³⁴ In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
   ³⁵ “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.”

Notice how at the end it says to forgive them from your heart. It doesn't say to just bear it and not show your unforgiveness, but to let go of it completely from both actions and feelings.

So I guess that that is something that I have been thinking upon and realizing. It seems like I am one who tends to not show stuff on the outside while on the inside I just harbor it, yet it just seems to come back to me in the form of heartache from such a heavy burden.

If you too suffer from heavy burdens of keeping stuff in your heart then I just encourage you to lift it up to Jesus and not concern yourself with matters that really aren't up to you to judge (Like me and those girls in class). Here is a verse that is one of my favorites that I'll leave you with:

²⁸ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

~Matthew 11

Blessings,

I'm Here!

Hello Dear Readers,
So you have all probably thought I fell off the face of the earth, being that I haven't made a post in like.... forever! (February 23rd to be exact!)

My life feels like it's swirling by, there has just been so much school and events that have taken place that blogging has just been on the back burner.

Well, I'm here to claim back my existence in the blogging world ;)

I'll be honest though, my brain has been scattered these last few weeks that every time I sit to write something I just can't get my thoughts to form a complete post. I suppose that the only reason that I am writing now is because I have been having a heavy thought that I've been avoiding but need to write about in order to sort through it. Writing therapy I suppose :)

Anyways, lately I've been job searching. I've applied for over 30 stores in the last two months. I have had 1 interview. Uno. One. That's it! I am so frustrated because I a) Need a job, and b) I have run out of places to apply for. Literally, my family will suggest a place and I'll be like "Already Applied There....".

A month ago I had thought about working at a summer camp, especially since I have always loved working at camps and felt kind of empty last year when I didn't get to. So I had called this camp and left a message saying that I had some questions about their staff positions. So just today (a month later) I received a message on my cell phone from the camp saying that they had been away from the office and were returning my call. So I'm thinking great, maybe God is telling me to work at this camp (because I had forgotten about it until the message). Then I found out that it doesn't pay.....

So where am I going with this?

Well I just feel so confused as to what to do. I need a job to make money this summer for school tuition next year, yet I love missionary/camp type work and have a passion for serving others. Does God want me to work at a camp? Or am I to just keep on applying at fast food joints and other places?

I just don't know what His will and plan is for me anymore. The most common question in my head lately is "Am I doing the right thing?". And sadly, I don't know the answer.

So that is where I am at in life now. Your prayers would be appreciated :)

Well, on a brighter note!

My friend Paperclip (camp co-worker :) from a Teenage Jesus Freak, tagged me in a post. You can read it HERE.

Anyways she gave me a blog award!

Thanks Paperclip! ♥

RULES: If you are awarded the Paperclip Award, you must answer the 13 prompts given, and then you must give the award to 13 bloggers (although, as the creator of the award, I’m giving you permission to give it to less, or more, and bend the rules a little) and give a link to their blogs. Also, no awarding the blogger who awarded you! Got that?
1. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A Pediatrician and then a Teacher, always a Mommy though :)

2. What is your ultimate favorite place to be?
Hmmm.... My room!
3. Name one famous person who inspires you. (Just one!!!)
Well, I really don't focus on famous people all that much.... I suppose from ordinary people I am really inspired by Fire Fighters, just because they do things that I would be too scared to do, yet they are still courageous in their jobs to help others and keep them safe. 
4. Tea or Coffee?
You readers should know this! ;) Tea of course!!!
5. If you could be any other person for 48 hours, who would you be?
Hmm.... Britt Nicole! She is such an amazing singer and such a godly woman :)

6. What is your earliest memory?
 Getting a little red plastic shopping cart with baby dolls for Christmas :)
7. If you could ask anyone in the world, living or dead, anything, who would you ask, and what would you ask them?
I honestly don't know.... 
8. What is the scariest thing you have ever done?
Gone through a haunted corn maze ::chills::, never again...
9. What is your favorite book?
Oh No!!!! I have way too many favorites! I'll tell you the authors: Janet Oke, Colleen Coble, Lauraine Snelling, T Davis Bunn, ect...
10. Briefly explain one of the weirdest dreams you have ever had.
Giant bugs invading our home, that was sure somethin.... 
11. What one song best describes you? (Feel free to post a link to a Youtube vid)
Legacy by Nichole Nordeman, just because I have felt the desire this past year to do something withn my life to make a difference. I want people to remember me when I am long gone for being a Godly woman :)
12. Pen or pencil?
Mechanical Pencil! 
13. Is 13 an  unlucky number or not?
Who Cares??? ;)
And No it's not :)

So Now I have a blog award to give out! :)

This is my 'Blooming Flower' award!

So first I'll award this back to Paperclip! :)
I have loved reading about your growth in the Lord and am proud to call you my friend Paperclip!

Secondly, I want to award this to Nela from Beloved Star
Nela, You have been such an encouragement to me just by reading my blog :)

Also I'd like to award the following:
GodsGirlz1
Elisha
& Carli Nicole
^For reading my blog and encouraging me with your comments :)^

So that about sums it up!
Hope this post wasn't too long for some of ya :)

Blessings,